1/31/2022 Featured Poet: mark s kuhar Jacob Norlund CC where this place begins and ends, i am that this town is like a flannel shirt with a hole in it hanging on the line to dry. this town only whispers when it’s twilight, it could be 150 years ago or next week. this town has blisters on its feet and its hair is overdue for a cut. i ran into this town at the grocery store, it was buying hamburger and a loaf of bread. i know this town from way back, my father knew its father, they were volunteer firefighters and members of the eagles lodge. this town is like a candle burning in the window, no one watching, and a baseball game crackles on the radio. i have seen this town clean up after a storm, picking up broken branches and sweeping muddy water onto flattened grass. where this place begins and ends, i am that, a compilation of all its joy and misery, foundation stones and green copper civil war statues, its grinding teeth, residue of stars, and sad inertia. when a place becomes you, there is no escape from layers of memory; history. Today workers replace worn red bricks in the street, by the town square, and no one has any idea who they know or where they came from other than here. old ford truck the man who lives on the corner stands in the gravel driveway with the hood of his old ford truck open again. he scratches his gray hair, holds a wrench in the other hand. sprays starter fluid into the carburetor, holds down the metal flap with his dirty finger. yells, crank it again! the engine grinds and grinds, but does not turn over. he mumbles inaudible words, grabs a greasy rag mindlessly wipes off a screwdriver. this happens every few weeks or so. the truck has seen better days, but he keeps it together with wire and duct tape wringing one more month out of it. in the drivers’ seat his wife sits, wears a checkered jacket, leans her head against her hand, elbow resting on the open window as the breeze blows in crank it again! he yells, and she turns the key, but it sounds like the battery is wearing down now, the starter galloping slower and slower. he wipes his nose with the sleeve of his shirt, stares under the hood, hoping a solution will rise out of pipes and metal, hidden in gasoline vapor like a ghost son in trouble we sit in my kitchen with bottles of beer you tell me your son is up against it, the first heroin overdose was bad enough, the second thank god for the narcan, swishing the beer around in the bottle you ask where you went wrong. honestly i want your opinion, where did i go wrong he played on all of the sports teams, was the quarterback in football, pitcher in baseball. i consider this as you talk on. was it the car you bought him when he was sixteen, maybe it was too fast. the girls he brought home, all of them pretty his grades, which were good enough to get by, not good enough to get into the best schools. you confide that you asked your boss to put him on one of the crews for the summer and he never went back to college, learning to drive trucks, taking the second shift for extra cash when that was available. you ask me did i try to do too much? his mother was never a very good parent. his sister always did everything right. i finish my beer, ask him if he wants another one, he says he does, drawing circular designs on the kitchen table with his finger, his left eye twitching, shadows descend do not ascend mark s kuhar is a cleveland, ohio-based writer, poet, editor, publisher and songwriter. His work has appeared, among other places, in the anthologies “An Eye for an Eye Makes the Whole World Blind: Poets on 9/11” (Regent Press); America Zen (Bottom Dog Press); “Action Poetry” (a LitKicks publication); “Cleveland in Prose & Poetry,” (League Press); ArtCrimes #21; Trim: A Mannequin Envy Anthology; Infinite Tide (Studio Eight Books); as well as in “The Long March of Cleveland,” “Ornamental Iron,” “Mac’s turns a New Trick” and “Anthologese the Next,” among others published by Green Panda Press; and forthcoming in “I Thought I Heard A Cardinal Sing, Ohio’s Appalachian Voices.” He has published five chapbooks: “acrobats in catapult twist” (2003); “laughing in the ruins of chippewa lake park” (2004); “e40th & pain: poems from deep cleveland” (2006); “mercury in retrograde” (2016) and “seymour’s poems.” (2017). He holds a BA in English, with a specialization in Creative Writing (1980) from Ohio University, Athens, Ohio. Comments are closed.
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