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Wednesday, September 05, 2007
     

all fucked up on all this life juice
Current mood: amused

i'm not allowed to smoke or drink or.. nothin for a long time.

guess how happy i am about that. . .
this may not sound like a big deal to some of the more "respectable" high and mighty
cunts that may read this , but honestly if i can help it, i usually drink from the moment i
open my eyes until i go to bed. Why?....because i can't stand any of you disgusting
clowns and i wish i was dead!

hahahaha. just kidding!

i love you all and i look forward to the coming months! don't let me near anything
sharp.

I'll cut ya!

hahahaha! jokes!




PS: if you read anything particularly good lately and are feeling kind enough to let me
borrow it, holla atcha boy…



3:55 PM - 2 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment -
    
    Melissa
i actually just finished this morn this awesome book called 'a strange loop' by douglas
hofstradter. its a sweet introspective read that jumps through many topics such as the
sense of self, the presence of souls, consciousness and what exactly the fuck am "I"....
suprisenly quick and entertaining with many tidbits from other philosophers throughout,
leading to other possibilities for future reads as well as eye opening anectdotes on all said
topics...maybe good to occupy your mind in your situation known as sobriety. i know i
can't teleport it to you, but i hope to be coming down to philly in oct 5 for this sweet party
at shampoo...i'll keep you posted-holla!


Posted by Melissa on Sep 6, 2007 5:07 PM
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                 robin
    

thank you melissa. you neva disappoint.


Posted by robin on Sep 6, 2007 5:11 PM




Last Login: 9/13/2007
Last post: under “Who I'd like to meet:” Robin wrote, “a train with teeth”.


He then went to the tracks, walking south along their center until an Amtrak train ran him
down. His body parts were found in and around the train and the train tracks as soon as
the train was able to come to a complete stop.


Man killed by train is identified.
Posted by The Times of Trenton September 14, 2007 3:37PM

TULLYTOWN, Pa. -- Officials have identified the person who was struck and killed by
an Amtrak train Thursday evening as Robin Bermudez, 24, of Levittown.

Bucks County Coroner Dr. Joseph Campbell released the name Friday afternoon.

According to police and an Amtrak spokesperson, Bermudez was walking along the
railroad tracks when Train 137 heading southbound en route from Boston to Washington
hit him. The accident happened at 7:40 p.m.

Amtrak spokesperson Tracy Connell said there were no injuries to any of the 252
passengers aboard the train.

All of those passengers were transferred to two other trains to continue their journey,
however several passengers who contacted The Times Friday said they waited nearly
three hours before they were escorted to another train and then waited about another hour
before that train started moving.

On Friday, Amtrak spokesman Cliff Cole said the accident was under investigation, with
no further details available.



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Posted by amtrak137 on 09/14/07 at 5:25PM

As another Train 137 rider noted earlier, the delay was three hours, not one, as the
Amtrak spokesperson claimed. Also, all 252 passengers were moved onto one train, not
two.

It seems disrespectful to "spin" Amtrak's reputation at a time like this.

My deepest sympathies go to the family of the young man who was killed, as well as to
the crew of Train 137, who were very professional and respectful to all during this sad
event.



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Posted by lees910 on 09/14/07 at 10:39PM


I was a train 137 rider. The delay was 3 hours - we were transferred to one train, not two.

We sat on the train for well over an hour before it was finally decided that our train would
not be continuing on. The updates were few and far between. And then it was another
hour before another train came to get us. And then it took another hour for us to be
transferred to the second train.

However, the train that came to get us was full of passengers as well. Train 137 had been
a sold out train so fitting us onto the second train was quite an ordeal. Most of the 252 of
us were forced to stand - how is that legal? How is that safe?! How does Amtrak get
away with these things?! That delay was totally unacceptable. My sympathies go out to
the family of the victim but Amtrak should have better and quicker evacuation techniques
in place.



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Posted by youthless on 09/15/07 at 7:09PM

lees910 and amtrak137--are you kidding??? You were unfortunately put out of your way
for several hours while someone's death was being dealt with. Perhaps you should have
used that time to be thankful for having your life. Perhaps you should have used your cell
phone to call those who are closest to you and tell them you were thinking of them. We
are all humans. Facts get jumbled--and this story's insignificant facts were the second
train arriving a few hours later.

Here's a more important fact--SOMEONE IS DEAD, and you're alive. Be grateful instead
of spiteful.



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Posted by amtrak137 on 09/16/07 at 9:50AM

@youthless. No, sorry. There is more than one story here. I'm sorry this one man made
such a terrible, final choice. But I am also sorry that 252 people missed spending the
evening with their kids, or dinner with their spouse, not because of a young man's suicide
but because of Amtrak's lack of planning.
So no, I don't see spitefulness in correcting the facts. I see mendacity in the fact that
Amtrak used a young man's suicide as an occasion for "spin." And I am especially sorry
that, as lees910 points out, this tragedy shows that Amtrak will have no clue what to do in
a more dangerous emergency than this one.



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Posted by miriclegrow on 09/16/07 at 2:39PM

He was my friend. What are you even arguing about? I'm sorry if his suicide caused you
to spend a few more hours on a train. I'm sure he didn't mean to inconvenience you.



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Posted by whattheuk on 09/16/07 at 9:41PM

Robin was a good friend of mine and he will be greatly missed! I also think for everyone
that was on that train should stop careing about the delay and stop and think about the life
that was lost and why! Something was wrong for him to do this, and it altimitly took his
life. And you people are worried about the passengers and the delay, it really seems like
that is more important than a 24 year old mans life! Rest in peace robin I hope you are
happier now than you were here.We will miss you, I just wish we had more time with you!



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Posted by across on 09/16/07 at 11:29PM

I didn't really get to know Robin. But I came here to perhaps find out what happened to
him and why. I can't believe that there are people on here crying about their disrupted
morning commute. It's rather sickening to see how self involved some people are.
In short, the world doesn't revolve around you. Get use to it.

To the friends and family of Robin, my condolences.



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Posted by a327495 on 09/17/07 at 9:46AM

i was a good friend of robins. I'll admit the last year seemed a bit rocky for him. he will
be missed greatly. today is his funeral and i still just can't believe it.


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Posted by captainmorg on 09/17/07 at 10:43AM

I am so completely disgusted by people on this page complaining about your god damn
train delay. Can you please be a little more insensitive and selfish? You write that you are
upset that you missed spending time with your kids, or that you missed dinner with your
spouse....get over it. A very special mans life was lost and the train company I'm sure did
their best to serve you ungrateful morons as best they could. I really wish that during that
terrible delay that, I mean, thank god you survived, ("I have no idea how you did") I
really wish that instead of sitting there being mad about the delay, that instead you sat
there and mourned on the fact that your train just took the life of someone. I wish you sat
there and appreciated that you still have your life. And I know that it says above that I'm
sure he did not mean to inconvenience you, but with people leaving comments like this, I
know he would of loved to inconvenience terrible people like you.

Robin was one of my best friends. This is a terrible, terrible thing that happened. All this
family and friends are struggling with this, and the last thing they need to do is read
comments like the ones that amtrak137 and lees910 left.

I love you Robin


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Posted by 137rider on 09/17/07 at 12:40PM

A lot of inaccuracies in the reporting here. The delay was indeed quite a bit longer than 1
hour. It was closer to three. Also, there was not a second train, there was 1. Train transfer
created a very dangerous situation for all passengers aboard. We were transfered in the
middle of no where and were told to absolutely not touch both trains at the same time or
risk injury.

I can't even imagine what the conductor is going through. Thats got to be traumatic.

I think the Amtrak crew did an excellent job of dealing with everyone. I'm sure the
people in business class were upset as they were probably standing like the rest of us and
they paid 32$ more to do so. I see many refunds coming.

I also have a lot of sympathy for the trains behind us as I can't imagine how messed up
their commute was. 3.5 hour delay is no good for anyone. Especially people who had
obligations after arriving to their destinations.


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Posted by kannacker on 09/17/07 at 9:43PM

It was a very sad day for the crew of Amtrak train #137. I was a member of the crew. One
of the reasons it took so long was at first we didn't even know we had hit someone. We
thought it was a deer or something that someone put on the tracks.

When we inspected the train and their was blood on the engine we didn't realize we may
have hit someone until we saw a pair of paints attached to the engine . We the called the
dispatcher who instructed us to walk back to see if we could determine if we hit anyone.

We left three crew members on the train to keep the passengers informed as to what was
going on. Four of us walk back almost a mile to cover all four tracks. This was no cake
walk for any of us. It is very hard to walk on the tracks since you are walking on stones
(ballast) plus the fact that we were looking for a body or body parts.

It was a very sad day for all of us when we discovered body parts and then the torso. I
was devastated when I found and read the suicide note. I really feel sorry for Robin and
wish that he could have been able to get some help to work through his problems.

As for the passengers the delay was long but their is a procedure that must be followed.
No trains are allowed to move until the police arrive and inspect the tracks. The corner
also has to come to the scene. Once all of this happens then when the police give their
permission that they are complete in their investigation the trains can then be allowed to
move again.

As far as getting a train that is empty their are none close by. An empty train would have
to come from Washington DC or from Boston, and that would take at least three to four
hours to arrive on the scene. All the other trains are in use and have passengers on them.

As far as I am concerned Amtrak did a very good job of getting a train to stop and load
all the people on it. Yes many had to stand including myself and the crew, but we
managed to get everyone on one train instead of using two trains which would have taken
longer to complete the transfer. Also those who would have been left behind would have
really been upset because they would have had to wait longer.

Passengers were kept informed and how to transfer from one train to another without
causing injury. The reason they were told not to touch both trains at one time was a safety
issue. By touching both trains at one time causes a bridge of two different circuits. This
can cause a possible shock or a tingling in the arms and legs as the current passes through
the body. Could one be killed by this I don't really know but I have bridged the circuits
before and I am still alive.

My blessings and prayers go out to Robin and his family. All of you have been in my
prayers every night. I will never forget that night for the rest of my life. The tapes in my
head play every night when I am in bed, I think about this unfortunate accident everyday.
It is just a very sad situation that this young man only lived for a short time.

Robin may god watch over you and I hope you are in peace. You are in my prayers.

Rick,
(Amtrak Conductor)


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Posted by across on 09/17/07 at 11:15PM

Rick, you are a decent human being.
I'm sorry such a compassionate person had such a tragic experience. And I'm almost just
as sorry that you have to deal with such mindlessly selfish commuters on a daily basis.


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Posted by TankGirl on 09/18/07 at 4:45PM

What is wrong with society? All I keep reading about is how upset everyone was about
the delay, when a good man/friend died in that tragic accident!

Robin and I may have drifted apart from each other after High School but he was a good
person. I just found out about this event today. And I have to say I am appalled at the
reactions of people to this post. Robin was a good friend, and he will be mourned/missed.

"Remember me when I am gone away.
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand.
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you planned:
Only remember me: you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had.
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than you should remember and be sad."
Quote from ~ Christina Rossetti


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Posted by rdifrancesco on 09/22/07 at 10:06AM

I was also a passenger on Train 137. I boarded at Penn Station, New York and departed
around 6:30pm. The train came to a stop at approximately 7:30pm, one hour into the
three hour ride to Washington. The Amtrak crew made a few initial announcements that
they may have hit something on the tracks and needed to check the train for damage
before it could start moving again. They provided periodic updates but information was
limited. We sat for at least an hour and a half before we were told the train would not be
resuming the trip because a police investigation was required, as such we were required
to do a train-to-train transfer on the adjacent tracks. Our train was at capacity due to Train
655, scheduled to depart New York after our train, being cancelled. Those passengers
were bumped up to Train 137. Around 9:30pm passengers were transferred to a single
Amtrak train, most of us standing the length of that train. The report does inaccurately
state that two trains were sent, however, this information was probably obtained from an
Amtrak spokesperson and the crew most likely initially notified the control center they
would require two trains to accommodate the heavy passenger load. According to my call
log, it was at least 10pm, probably closer to 10:30pm before the second train started
moving. For reference, we reached the Wilmington, Delaware station at 11:10pm. Given
this, the stated delays of three hours are reasonably accurate. The train reached its final
destination of Union Station, Washington, D.C. at approximately 1:00am.

Given the circumstances of this incident, the Amtrak crew handled the situation in a
professional manner and to the best of their ability. Infrequent updates while stuck on the
train were most likely due to lack of initial information as the crew followed procedures
to determine what had occurred. It was also fully dark by this time, which most likely
further complicated the crew's preliminary investigation. In my estimation, Amtrak
executed the contingency plans to the best of their ability. Sure, we all could have done
without the three hour delay, but Amtrak generally doesn't keep empty trains hanging
around at every station during rush hour on one of it's most heavily traveled lines. And
yes, it was uncomfortable to stand on a moving train for a long period of time, but to say
it's unacceptable is rather ignorant. Given the circumstances, standing was probably the
best option for the crew and most passengers and the train did run at slower speeds
because of this. Because an Amtrak ticket is for a reserved seat, having to stand when
paying for a seat is a legitimate complaint. I strongly recommend calling the Amtrak
Customer Relations department, as I did last night. They are aware of this incident and I
stated up front that I was not calling to complain about the delay nor trying to get a
refund for an incident which was completely out of Amtrak's hands. However, I, like
many other passengers, had obligations and further travel arrangements beyond that of
the train's destination and those were significantly impacted. Without question, Amtrak
issued a travel voucher which is a satisfactory response for this situation.

Lastly, let's cut the crap about the passengers being so insensitive and selfish during the
incident. The truth is suicide is the most selfish act one can commit. Referring to the
passengers as "ungrateful morons" shows a lack of intelligence on behalf of that writer,
after all, I chose to get on the train, not under it. The passengers I was seated near all
handled this maturely and understood Amtrak was not at fault. More to the point, it was
not our train that took Robin's life, it was Robin's state of mind and his selfishness that
took his life. To say the train took his life is to say that the train engineer is directly
responsible for his death. You can't stop a train running at nearly 120MPH with over a
million pounds of force behind it. Simply put, the train engineer did not have a choice,
Robin did. He chose poorly. He made a conscious decision to end his life in a manner that
could have very easily taken the lives of innocent passengers on that train. We all felt the
tremendous jolt as our train car traveled over him. I'm still not sure how some cars did not
derail. He could have chosen to take his life in another manner that didn't jeopardize
others. I shouldn't be criticized for wanting to get on with my travel and personal plans
simply because Robin put himself under the wheels of a locomotive I happened to be on.
Amtrak and the passengers dealt maturely and properly with a situation created by
someone who, by that single decision, defines selfishness.


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Posted by gghumanist on 10/20/07 at 7:51PM

Hi. Contrary to popular belief, the reason people who knew Robin blast the passengers
who came on here to complain is not because they do not have sufficient intelligence to
understand that Robin's actions had consequences which affected other people, for,
believe me, they were affected. After all, while he MAY have jeopardized your plans, and
MAY have jeopardized your safety, he, in fact, DID do serious, unavoidable harm to the
psyches and souls of the people who loved him. They call for sensitivity, not because he
was an innocent victim of a train, or of circumstance, but because they were.

They are the only ones around to be hurt by the comments posted here.

Your railing against his suicide as "the supremely selfish act" could not possibly be more
obtuse, nor a bigger waste of time, and not just because his actions were a practically
inevitable result of the bad chemicals that FUBAR'd Robin's brain, God rest his soul, nor
because it is now far too late to try to sway him with bumper sticker slogans. You are a
fool of the worst sort if you believe Robin's mourners need to be told by some punk on a
train anything, anything, about how awful and careless and hurtful his actions were.
They are living it.

And yet they continue to love him, forgive him, mourn him. What does that say about
him? What does it say about you, that you think now is the time, and this the audience to
whom you should be preaching your high-handed diatribe? Is this the forum on which to
showcase your own lack of experience, of compassion?

You want to talk about selfishness?

"Can true humility and compassion exist in our words and eyes unless we know we too
are capable of any act?" -St. Francis of Assisi


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 Photo's of Robin courtesy of his Mother.

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Bio: Living by the Great Salt Lake, Cheyenne Nimes is a cross-genre writer currently working on poetry/nonfiction hybrids. Work is forthcoming in The Shell Game, an anthology on forms (University of Nebraska). Awarded the Edwin Ford Piper Scholar Award for Names for Water Bodies & Other Places the Water Fell: A Micro-history of American Rivers and the World Water Crisis, she was a University of Iowa Art Museum resident writer chosen by Eula Biss. Passing Through 90 Degrees, which garnered an NEA, received the Michael Rubin award from San Francisco State University. South Loop Review, Ninth Letter, DIAGRAM, Kenyon Review, etc. are recent homes, and work is forthcoming in Jellyfish Review, Threadcount, and interIrupture. She collects rocks, feral cats, & crime shows.

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