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1/30/2022

Poetry by Jessica Heron

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               ​Tristan Loper CC



Seaside

I.
I share the pride of place with these men,
their monster trucks, skull stickers and blue lives

flags by walking the edge of the ocean and urinating
wherever I please. I hold it in so long it starts

to feel like a disease. My back to the sea, I take my time

to admire newly planted dune grass, cookie-cutter houses
of the rich, the mango raspberry sun setting. Done.

I slice my feet through sand when you catch my eye,
small sea bird. Someone not from around here would

think you’re nestling, your feet tucked under
your underneath plump feather-breasted vocalizations

deep. But I see you waiting it out.
I know the other side of these dunes like

sunglasses plastic knows the tanned man’s
temples. I didn’t park near him. He would bare his

teeth if he knew I peed in his ocean. In my car I click
the driver’s seat as far back as it can go, relax my

muscles in this dominion. I contemplate doing 
my nails until an officer notices

I haven’t paid to park here. Chased by the meters,
I move my car every 15 minutes.


II.

You see, I belong nowhere.
My body can’t be trusted.
I need a dermatologist
a deep massage, a lobotomy
paralytic nerves
I need meds
and meds for the meds’ side effects
and when no meds work I
conjure myself to the side of
the bay bridge.

I need a shower
I need to walk the dog
I need my dog
I need a safe place
quiet as a feather,
where traffic is a whisper
and all panic is subdued by order.

I know this is nowhere.
I’ve been on these sands
through all these years
I still haven’t found it
yet
I am so much older
and more desperate
hunting this thing down -
I’m feeling sick again.




Jessica Heron’s work can be found or is forthcoming in The Horror Zine, Hole In the Head Review, Black Petals Horror/Science Fiction Magazine, and the Tupelo Press 30/30 Project (November 2021). You can find her walking New Jersey’s parks and beaches most days, and at @signature_trash. Jessica is a Poetry Reader for Catatonic Daughters.
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