Alexandru Paraschiv CC
I stay between get and grief. Radiance
is a dream I had of light. Even now
the days are shaving themselves down, thinner
and thinner, a prepubescent autumn.
On some road to language I swerved off of
Lolita dawdles, remade, remorninged.
Dewiness does not become a woman
of a certain age. Forty-eight puts me
in mind of spiders, of Maman, Louise.
I know of worse cells within which to spend
September. Spread before me horizons
of ever more intricate darkness—let
me let them. I’ll at each vanishing point
plant a leech. That’s what a moon is: bleeding.
Plant leeches under the new moon. Bleeding
the earth is advised by this almanac.
Other remedies include: coast torchings
hurricanes, floods, and virus. Winter will
bring the desserts and they will be just per-
fection. This is a poisoned state. Expect
wild strawberries and whuppings. The best switch
you cut for yourself: ours is ferocious.
On ‘flix, the inside moon, a film extols
the wonder of mushrooms—their synaptic
undergrounds. To bloom from shit is to know
listening. Once, while high, I climbed a tree
and kissed a boy and read the leaves: the most
knotty longing is but a minor love.
My nerves are knots. I long for love. To be
spectral, I just watch. Picture a life lived
on the skin of things alone, blanched as if
by lion’s tongue. Appalled. When I am out
in the world my trick is to see, remain
unseen. No industrial spill required
to initiate powers I wield always
from the shallows, subconsciously. This is
how to be villain: feign innocence, face
no consequences, flee each chance to root.
A deep nomad lacks no home. All lands, sites
of her haunting, streets—teeming with her need
—to blow through others’ lives. Greedy gust, un-
invited. When I am, I’m wrongly there.
Kirsten Kaschock, a 2019 Pew Fellow in the Arts, is the author of four poetry books and a chapbook: Unfathoms (Slope Editions), A Beautiful Name for a Girl (Ahsahta Press), The Dottery (University of Pittsburgh Press/winner of AWP Donald Hall Prize), Confessional Science-fiction: A Primer (Subito Press), and WindowBoxing (Bloof Books). Coffee House Press published her debut speculative novel—Sleight. She teaches at Drexel University.
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