Wonderland by Natasha Cabot

​Wonderland
 
 
I cut off my tits

my menstrual flow reverses back inside of me

and I’m a child again

I crawl up my mother’s vagina to hide

nothing can get me in there

I slide down her fallopian tubes and squeal with delight

I swim inside her ovaries and crush the other eggs

there will be no sibling rivalries anymore

a hand reaches up to pull me out and I snap at it
 
tearing it off
 
and I swallow it whole
 
there will be none of that!
 
I won’t go willingly
 
I won’t go quietly
 
I’ll stay here safely
 
until she dies

then I’ll sneak back out and resume my womanhood
 
without her in the way
 
that’s always been how it’s done in my family
 
we emerge from the cocoon when it’s safe
 
and the mouth is perpetually quiet

BIO: Natasha Cabot is a Halifax-based Canadian writer whose work has been featured in Thrice Fiction Magazine, Toasted Cheese Literary Journal, Wilderness House Literary Review, as well as several others. She recently completed work on her first novel, "Patriotland."

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